YES! I got a feeling of gratitude!

i’m cool!  i’m happy!  i’m a super star!!!! YES I’M!!!! i’m gorgeous! and i wanna count stars on the sky!!!

Guys, i love you all!

P.S. and now i go back to my EU report)) beeee

Today in the morning felt like smiling to all this world)) Felt as laughing with no reason for that and tha’s why felt more brilliant!! that was a way how i got to my office today!

feeling completely exhausted in the office, guess bcoz of tough previous week.

plan to go for lunch in japanese restaurant… as always

same time, having lots of thoughts in my head, but r they constructive?

have to find very urgently smth to do!!!

we love and we hurt or we just believe?!

since one day i believe only in “faith” – the only thing may keep us alive

God thanks for everythin’ and bless me pls

so, finally we had last conversation, i couldn’t understand the reason to be so nice with me – no reason, nothin’ left “imagine urself on my place and u’ll c, if i shout it will not bring everythin’ back”, that’s right

some days later i made tattoo on my neck (text in hebrew “faith”), meaning is following: dear, i believe in love, hm sounds so simple… but i dnt know words to express that great feelin’,but ok…after i kept u in my mind for 4 years, and even if there was no future since the beginnin’, there’s my fault in the end, but my David, even now u mean so much for me… i remember; so its over but with it i’m tryin’ to say for myself that i shouldn’t lose faith in life, i had u and i’ll always remember u, butboth i wish love and happiness for you and for myself  even with other people, i had u and if i die tomorrow  it wouldn’t be for nothin’, i was happy with u (yeah i know sounds a lil bit depressiv, of course i believe i’ll die very old, i just mean in my life till now i had a lot of emotions)

today feelin’ very agressive, all my body is shakin’ since the mornin’, dnt understand what a hell is goin’ on, i thought i’ll be more calm when R. will arrive – but i realize how much i’m waitin’for his call -i have to talk

during day i wa just thinkin’ but some hours ago had a breakdown and couldn’t stop cryin’, thx to my roommate who took me out of the house

i remember everythin’, every single day…

i’m just wonderin’, almoust everybody have smth in their life what they dnt  forget,but some of them stay sad till their last days, all i want is to become happy again, to open my eyes again, to olive my life in the place i want, to have my love with me… actually this list may be too long and some parts may be replaced

P.S. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=IiwpsKfFpoU

and… now i got more information about my human-being))) i mean what i wanna do further, but post it later

yea, i changed the city but not a country

but sometimes i think, i can’t runaway from yourself does’t matter wher u r

i have doubts,but i also know one thin’ for sure that stiked o my mind for the last 3 year even more

dear,i don’t know if  i ever c u again, acually i believe i’ll just not sure that will have a chance to hold u, kiss u, i believe! but i thank God that i know u, that with u i was so happy and i swear i keep memory inmy heart forever!

Today is oer the first workin’ week,got a lil bit tired after  long new year vacation, and only my thoughts keep me alive, i know for sure what i want now, about therest i gonna think after

sometimes, when i think about u,i can’t breath no air
i believe, i’ll be there at the end of a day!

P.S. 

btw, i’m affraid…
time passed but there r ppl who r very iportant for me, but i’m affraid they don’t even remember me

not many friends left,but sometimes i get very mpressed, thxm dear was appy to c u afterpsses 3years
or i even think that their life is goin’on but i stoped on that point, closed myself in cupboard and don’t know already how to openits door and to c the light
wanna open my eyes as before, to look around amazingly, but i c nothin’ what impresses me
still, lookin’ forward and goin’ front!

I look forward, i go front, and i don’t look back…

just watched movie, and got so many emotions

what do i do with my life

dear,saw u again today in my night dreams,miss u… but no need to wait, i still look back and that’s why too hard to go front

that was a period of my life, i wasso happy, nothin’ would be same but igonna do my best to go back

i feel like i’m half asleep,i’m not enjoyin’ what i have at all, i’m rushin’ for smth whatidon’t know, i just know one thin’ – wanna leave this country

where’s me? where’s that girl who i always knew? not that lady who i c in mirrow with so serious eyes? where r all emotions?and where’s that feelin’of enjoyin’ every single day?

don’t be affraid, no fear as ppl always feel it

love u, have a good night

this saturday happened smth what i really couldn’t expect in my life-it was like a gift

and now i wanna say some words while i still remember: u have a beautiful eyes, lips, body; take care of yourself bcoz for agirl that’s very importand and it’s a kind of moving front by other people, live ur life; live only for yourself bcoz noone would help you;appreciate ur parents – theyr the closest ppl to u who’dalwayd do their best to help u and would never be jealous; everytime u c a poor person – give donation -buy ur life; every dayin the morning when u wake up, say “God, thanks for giving me life, i look forward, i go front, i don’t look back and i don’tgo down. God bless me”,there’s no stability in life – only after u don’t want anythin apart ur family and kids.

Don’t stop on same point in ur life,develop yourself,”that’s stupid to cross theseaand to sink in the puddle”, appreciate yourself – always rememberwho you r;dear i do love you and i wasso ashamed to talk to u,never regret about whatu did-that had tohappen, it brings u to the point who u r now; i’m not a has been- i’m a will be, do ur best u can in order to get what u want-if not u gonna suffer about that in future.

“The person who gets the farthest is generally the one who is
willing to do and dare. The sure-thing boat never gets far
from shore.”

– Dale Carnegie
“I am always doing that which I can not do, in order that I
may learn how to do it.”

– Pablo Picass

u know maybe there’s not much what i can do now

but i’m not gonna rush anymore for my candy dream wastin’ my time livin’ others live

but if i stay here, after some years i plan to buy appartment in spain(or turkey) and move there

xoxo

my love, i didn’t tell u one thin’ now – i’m leavin’ and u don’t need to come here anymore

forgive me my lie

i’m not that young as before and i don’t trust people that much, but i still remember all those nice feelings

I LOVE YOU

and how sorry i feel that still u didn’t come for all that time

my dear, i just talked to u, till this moment i already thought its over but ur words made me remember its again

just what is so difficult? is there possible marriage between christians and jewish? why is it so complicated? or its not written to us to be together?and we may just keep good memories about each other? all words i just heard from u,they r perfect for my ears from ur lips.

P.S. Gary Jules – Mad World